laz bt nt liz...

yup... it ends today, a start of tomorrow.. a week more to go, is pmr i noe... for some reason, i gettin lot of pressure every angle while i myself cn't even noe jor.. my mum, my mum anger sand-bag, my mum high expectation, target on result, my bm tuition, tt, bad in bm..... too tired to even c a luk... today was like whoosh, a simply do jor de tez... kh n geo, lot tembak, bang bang.. den fin go Zzz... den it end a day.. ytd mum mad at my bro(brian) n oso make me involve gettin marah for sittin there... i shouldn't hv sit there, so bad lck.. and when today skul end, my bro w8t for me in d skul gate due to ytd my mum say she will nt fetch us bek home bt she still appear n my bro turn bek when he saw the car.. and when we go in, mum oso scold me... bt lik no one even care abt other feelin, nor to think abt... i din gt angry at her, jz disappointment from her.. even wad she does, my bro jz too mad at my mum and tok bad abt her at her bek.. bt i still isn't puttin my anger into it a single wan cz i doesn't wan to let every1 unhapi, cz a small action hv a chance to chg a big situation.. if one's step back is to one's forgiveness... eventho ltr on she everytime hurt s/1 feelin n jz think ntg ever happen, even wad i wanted to say cnt to told out to her, i somehow hope my family will think more in others situation... even a simple thin aren there a solution? i reli dun gt why ppl doesn't think lik wad i do? nt to say i'm a right person everytime.. bt wad i mean is y doesn't some1 does s/thin while to think themself into others situation? i admit, is nt always right for wad i do, bt is better den hurtin ppl feelin.. a good man is someone who stands on one's shadow.. for me, i usually gt the thought evitime, bt usually i'll ignore wad i done, the usual me is s/one nt thinkin of the front view, bt w/out a sec to speak of.. and there's why if u may noe well, i'm a straightforward person dat usually hurt ppl feelin even i myself gt it.. i gt d feelin of them too.. i do regret bt den i would s/how nt turnin it bek, bcz i cnt chg time, n dat is a prob 4 me 2.. bt hopin dat my whole family would b more understandin specially those hot-tempered de lor... i gt abit oso lar... haha... i duwan after slamin d car door, next is the hse.. 0.0 it is possible.. = ='' nt a carefree life at all...................

if one's step back is one's forgiveness,
a good man is s/one hu stands on one's shadow,
a life will b meaningless w/out livin,
n d responsibility to luk after the plant of our family....