the skul life i had after PMR..

today was lik.. ==" from mornin den nid to stay bek for d program for us... bla bla bla... gt futsal, basketball, kricket, dancin, drama, syarahan, etc... i gt no interez anyway.. =/ bt i cn hear yuki so high abt dat.. she even wan to join FUTSAL!?! is dat a gud or a weird thin to say? o.O anyway, it doesn't matter to me anyway... bt d teacher wan us to paz up d c2p form and it is a MUST to tek representative from class.. ==' den we oso bein told dat we'll start streamin edi.. so i duno is a gud thin we'll b ponteng skul? o.O bt yuki say she'll go eviday.. i lazy...==" and den d drama they say d whole class join, bt i din think is gud cz nvr ask ppl permission.. and u noe wad they wan to act??! Phineas and Ferb(disney channel cartoon) n yuki was lik so high plus tj and aliff they all discuss in aliff side there.. and i wif angeline, yy, shir jin, pei yi, cullyn.. talkin lik.. ntg to tok jor.. so bored... den ltr we play mafia game... we're lik playin n evitime it was lik d group was so dam geng to recognize d killer.. haha.. anyway, den ltr gt interrupt n it slowly ppl go UNO side there jor.. den we oso join UNO there, bt haven end den ring and sj=kul end jor.. haha.. =) i still left a card.. ><" bt ytd nite, my mum n dad was lik fighting... and i duno suddenly my mum cry sayin wad she din ask for anything to b grand or s/thin to celebrate, den ehem.. den dad was lik cal me to fix d prob, i dun even noe wad happen! den i cal my sis, she's lik sleepin n lik bo song tokin to me, den i say she lik oo, em, eh, ah.. = =" den after skul i makan wif bro n mum n brian say he vomit in midnite 3am n was lik so 'e xin' and den dad was oso sleepin ouside his rum(my mum lock d door jor) wif my bro.. = = and nw, i duno wan to do wad... >_>|| i duwan to go skul lieh.... specially 2molo... = = bt lik nid to go.. haiz.. oh yea, n today a big bag of teks buk dat nid to return to skul.. and from mornin, angeline n pei yi help me rub the teks lik untill cn even swt.. haiz... rub untill d end.. haha... =D anyway, my table oso 1 thin... = = duno which damn person dat so c2p nvr use brain go tek my precious table and tear off d wrapper.. damn dat guy!! D=< bt ltr on i tek my pmr time de table, and we found wenn's table dat dylan tuk, n chg for her, chair oso.. =) anyway, 2molo is futasal n basketball practice anyway... yuki wan join kriket, futsal, drama, and dancing.. = = i nvr choi it so much anyway.. she's lik so high there wif aliff n tj they all, we girls are in a corner talkin.. hahaha.. =D even airplane oso tok, even wad class oso.. haha.. and oso, they even tok abt jamuan bt nov we start form 4 lesson jor, so i dun think we cn do end of dis year........ n d jamuan yuki say is HALLOWEEN PARTY.. - -" gt so free n $$ to use mar, our class fee oni still left less den RM10 and cz a c2p teacher mek missin our kk buk n use our class fee abt RM100 to pay bek.. damn dat teacher oso!!!!! duno wad teacher is dat!!!! her mek missin den use our $$.. grrrr!!

really end jor.. pmr.. haha.. bbq!

today was finally d laz day of PMR!! yeah~~!! =P bt dun tok to me studies jor.. 2day bc i reli duno, swt.... = =|| too hard for me... anyway, after skul, me, wenn, n cindy go down 'celebrate' end of PMR n relax~~ =D we go wenn hse after skul n den go 2 CT den.. after buy n they rent manga, we go down to IOI mall eat BBQ plaza... dat was my 1st time eatin it ne... very nice.. =D bt 1 thin, too much VEGE!!!! OAO 2 BIG bowl of dat vege, n we ate fin... =D n i was so afraid my mum noe-in where i am, jz say wenn n cindy wan go 'buk store c buk' dat time, sori use ur name.. TT and den when we go makan, there r pork, chic, sotong, broccoli, vege, vege, carrot, corn, tomato(green colour wan), fish, noodles, noodle kind of fish ball......etc... =] wow, they reli bring me to a nice place to eat ne.. =P and btw, they even say dat taiwan is makin jigoku shoujo oso, bt i gt a feelin nt reli gud de, same as jp de drama, cz real ppl cnt present the part of jigoku shoujo, oni anime(original), even d manga sucks.....(reli, i'm reli nt kiddin... i'm serious!! O_O too shoujo-ish for jigoku shoujo.. = ='') oni anime cn present the character of her.. if u gt watch u'll noe jor.. -.- anyway, y am i tokin abt jigoku shoujo anyway.. o.o ltr on, i went to CT in IOI n i met s/1, duno wad's d name, bt noe her.. she's lik oso choosin there n i was surprise cz she doesn't luk lik she'll read manga or s/thin.. i went i went to choose manga(usually i nid to tek time to scan evi buk) n den sambil chat wif her.. =) bt important is i got ARISA!!!!! vol 4, after internet de update.. hahahaha... n dat time it was d laz buk.. hohohoho... n other buk, anyway, ltr on payin d buk, i rush to d restoran to meet up wif cindy n wenn.. due to their sms n cal.. =) n i was so rush n quickly ran down d escalator n on d way till d shop, so tired.. haha... den pay $$, ltr den i n cindy go bek jor... ltr on i was walkin wif cindy, when cross d bridge, there's a beggar sittin there, n suddenly when cindy cross over, he was lik cal her 'xiao mei', beg for money.. n was lik gt a fright... haha.. den when cross d road, in d bank there, there' was lik a car dun care we gt cross or nt, lik wan to bang jor.. = ='' den ltr wok wok, den cindy met her fren(a group of guy) on d way n she say hi.. =) den ltr on, we saw d 'bling bling' car, den when wan cross over d road, it was lik so scary to cross, reli cnt put ur eyes away from cindy ne, haha.. mz see her tightly, reli bu fang xin her.. haha.. =D oso her cute side oso lar.. hahaha.. den ltr wok till d CT kenari, we part our ways, bt still bu fang xin her goin alone.. deb ltr wok bek, i met 'xiu qi', cindy n zhi mei fren.. bt mum say she will cum in a while bt dam long i waited.. den i read s manga.. arisa 1st of course.. bt doesn't mek me any hapi anyway, jz lalala... new girl cum out.. n i kinda dislik d guy anyway... = = (bt from start d charcter there does nt nid my concern, all i c was arisa n sis), den d 'bu gu yi qie de ai' end jor, end untill very li pu... = = den ltr on mum came n i was lik swt... bt b4 dat i found dat i lost my key, n went i came bek home, as thought, i was being scolded for missin it.. i dunno where i lost it, either skul, wenn hse, or even place dat i pass by... damn it!! arghhhh!!!! y nid to missin ne... haizz........ TT i hope cn find.... TT continue, i hv ntg to say anymore, even pmr end, i still dun hv a burden being put down... mayb i still hv d pressure dat my mum gv n it doesn't make any diff from d start till it end.. haiz... nw all i cn wish is 5A..... TT

7.49pm
i go watch out d (si sheng shao nv), bt is actually nt jigoku shoujo at all.. boring den d anime, nt to say, it is NOT d same at all.. i mean, is not jigoku shoujo, is other story.. =/ n i dislik d song... - -' cnt say as a song to me............... i see half of ep 1 n i duno should i even c d bek? ><>

(stupid blog delete my poz, i duwan to edit jor)

pic i tuk in BBQ Plaza

yumyummy~~ (c d vege in d side)

rdy to eat(vege in side colour white le..)

add more~~!!!

hw many times we had to eat d vege? haha

wenn n cindy~~!! (sori tek u all.. nice~~ =D)

PMR ends... yay!! neh, nt me anyway...

today was end of pmr, bt nt for me, cz i still hv BC dat i regrettin to tek on.. ><" eventho i wish for thin to happen, bt once, i understand, reality is s/thin ppl dun do, bt see wif the fact dat always had a reason bhind.. anyway, nt gud, today mt, hope for A for sure!! kh i hope A, bt i dun think so, bt if kh no A i reli cnt gt 5A jor........ ><" today was lik goin bek old hse two time n is lik deja vu, dam, haha.. i cum bek d tenent was lik over there, den they go jor, bt still gt some inside lieft, den after kh exam, i went bek home again, mum nvr fetch me for 2 times 2day.. = =' n when i cum bek, again d same tenant over there, n for awhile they oso go jor... haha.. den cum bek i 1st thin go check my c2p textbuk n hope to gt 15 buk, bt missin 1 jor.... - -|| i sure noe de.. bt i duno wad buk is dat oni noe is sc de(nt teks), n i try callin wenn abt d buk n price, bt she lik busy no pik up...?

bt anyway, 2molo bc, hopein for B~~~~ i noe wenn n yuki sure wan A de lor... bt they geng, so sure boleh!! wenn boleh!! yuki boleh!! i, tak tau boleh mou!! hahaha.. cnt b wan la.. = =||

i check my older poz n see gt lz time simply write de poem or er... duno wad to cal.. my creation... haha... =]

24 sep 2010, fri

if one's step back is one's forgiveness,
a good man is s/one hu stands on one's shadow,
a life will b meaningless w/out livin,
n d responsibility to luk after the plant of our family....

sep 17 2010, fri

if u ever turn around,

ever c d past,

ever c d place,

dat will always last,

bt what u learn,

is nt the fact u're there,

bt the precious pieces of memory dat u've shared..

sep 16 2010,thurs

somehow i wonder, will i ever fall,
will i be tripped by s/1 when i walk,
will i rise up to c their face,
or should i kept inside n nt to say?
bt for my bein, i always use to b,
hopin my fren n family will undersand me,
s/how i cn noe wad they're thinkin,
bt in my sky is still nt a bit of changing..
i would hv say yes or no,
bt s/time after sayin dat i may b hurtin u,
should i say another word again,
'i'm sori' is d word for dat nw n den..

sep 5 2010, sun

jz lik a sayin, 'time wait for no man', a blink of an eye would chg a day till to b ytd, without hessitation, it would nt turn bek, or stay..
ppl chg and may gone away,
bt life still go on untill it end s/day,
a word u say may jz b ntg n forgotten,
only d hurted person will remain u to b unforgiven..
and den time cums by, its dawn then,
still i'm waitin, to chg bek again,
bt den i wonder, wad stupid question,
for me to regret, nt turnin bek to heaven..

october 8 2010, fri

yet another mz b rise again n again,
leavin all bhind was jz piece of d pain,
s thin we missed n loz wil nt b rmb,
yet i try hard to tek d pieces 2geher,
could u hear my song n words?
would u understand a single phase?
when ppl say think out of d box,
is lik judgin d flower was sad it wiltered..
bt they're speechlez, lik s/1 u noe,
hvin thorns on it's stem blow,
u wouldn't noe it was hapi nor sad,
it could b hatred it ends n forgotten in d laz...

oct 10 2010, sun

i'll b searching,
the rainbow behind my mind,
i'll b following,
the step my fate listed,
my game to start,
is to be on my life,
the miracle i believe,
is a part of motivation of mine.
and u, ur courage,
are always been seen in my heart,
always forever,
i'll acknowledge that lil faith u pt on me,
n i'll try my bez wif my might to forfill the dream..

all above was dis year de(some oni) i wrote, bt all is nt proper wan, jz simply write... =P thanks wenn for ur comment of all my creation on d chat box.. =D once again, ty~~

fine.. ya rite..

today was a fine day, fine nite, fine mood... lik dat's real!! blek!!=P so nt!! haha.. okok, a lil joke.. today mornin i dun hv tt bt mum wan me to hv on 2pm till 4, yet she is busy for her seminar from mornin till late to nite, so she rq my aunt hu was stayin in bdr kinrara to fetch me, yet!! i duno wad d time is d tt.. dat is my mum fix, nt anyone, so teacher ownself oso dunno, but how many N time i cal dat guy he din even pik up my fon, i was lik nid to put down my aunt's invitation to her hse.. n lazly there's no tt at all.. i mean it was gud bt nt at all, mum wan us to do hse work, n i was lik so lazy to c, n my c2p bro, specially brian eat fin my 'oat crunch'.. ><" and he accuse jeremy n i cn hear jeremy askin wad is dat, n brian hittin him, n cal him to say 'is me'.. ==|| reli swt.............. din belajar even tomolo exam will be continue anyway... haizzz........ >_>|| i'm reli no use...... TT anyway, hopin cn gt 5A at liz.. ><||

i'll b searching,
the rainbow behind my mind,
i'll b following,
the step my fate listed,
my game to start,
is to be on my life,
the miracle i believe,
is a part of motivation of mine.
and u, ur courage,
are always been seen in my heart,
always forever,
i'll acknowledge that lil faith u pt on me,
n i'll try my bez wif my might to forfill the dream..

haizz...i'm bored....

i was really making myself more n more a someone i cannot even understand myself.. confusion really making the end of someone focus... for me as a someone that usually keep following in a same path but in my mind, it was all side that i was stuck in the center and my steps had pause from then.. boredom is something that will make people confuses for an aim, and depression, will make a person confident discourage, and backing down, it was a feeling that shed people's wonder to making forward to the back of their mind, and all they see was black and white.. may them cover our eyes, our life, but human feeling is stronger that we may think, i believe, that those will change the facts.. i will try to go for the belief, than for the doubt i bet.. so, i hope, wish, and dream, that all the belief i put on, is keeping their own path to continue the path.. and when one's gave up, is the end for everything.. so, believe, and putting on our role, till the end, in everyone, is a main nor just a side walker, playing each part, is something important to have the faith.. and you'll believe, there're sure someone who is fated to meet you under the same sky we look up to.. there is sure to be, if you do.. that's why, i'll get myself straight to do and forward to the other side of the land to meet, even there meant for sadness to sacrifice before hand, enduring them till the end, and you'll get to see the end of rainbow..

ok, back to topic, i'm reli bored k.. - -' and no nid to understand wad i reli write if dun understand anyway, cz i myself oso nt sure.. haha.. nvr think den write jor... ><" ok, den i was lik today being called to wake up at 6am++ jz becz mum nt free n nid tt.. arghh!! and ltr go tt centre, teacher cal us go down n makan, he lazy go so paz me RM50 to buy, den i go down wif brian n the mini mini market was lik so dam.. smelly.. ><" i cnt stand the smell in there for long.. den the endlot was a chinese fud stall, when i was findin fud to eat, there's an auntie askin me wad i wan, and i ask her gt 'char kuih teow' anot, she was lik gt, n ask me wan or duwan dis dat, i tuk all except 'xi ham', and she was kind anyway.. =) bt my bro wan buy sweet there, bt i duwan go in ay first, cz there gt a weird person lukin at us when we're standin there.. = = very suspicious........... bt my bro reli fan, so go by oso very obvious he was lukin at us, even luk bek.. = = i quickly go bek to dat auntie there, n was coz rm4, and we went bek n i paz bek d rez rm56 to teacher(my bro sweet was paid by himself) n i went to eat, bt the kuih teow gt abit thick.. bt i cnt fin anyway, den bla bla, soooo long oni cn go bek, bt still thanks to wenn's mum to fetch me, n her sis n wenn too.. =) thankss~~!! ^^ bt den makan my sis cuk geh thing, den ltr her fren cum, i ply com untill nw, ntg much.... see ltr nite gt anythin dat make my mood chg, sure will edit dis poz de.. hahaha.. so mayb there's changes anyway(gua), bt mayb nt.. haha.. hope nt cz mean bad mud mozly.. >_>|| i'm lik dat de, nt si wen lik wenn~~ =/ haha.. ok anyway~~ till here.. =)

F*..!! %#&*^%&^%

is nt lik i wan to say lik dat, bt is jz nw i reli after readin d sms n missed calls, i s/hw manage to had another reply of wenn's sms dat i was halfway writin my reply and my veins broke in a sudden and there's is where my sleepyness is covered wif a word rage in my head.. dat is totally pissed off!! when today, a free day after sufferin d pmr i had for 3 days, tuk a break n today was lik whole day com in a way, bt i kinda had the feelin of dissatisfication on me.. y? i kinda had a feelin will i jz over my days lik dat after my pmr? i dun gt it y anyway... i read so many manga today n yet, still nt satisfied? is nt dat i think is nt enuf time or whatover to gt on d com, bt is lik i kinda felt.. bored n causes me think dat way, n thinkin further ahead dat will i paz all dis days lik dis?? dam, y am i nt thinkin straight? i think i reli had my brain washed n even went to read fans' novel dat is in bl.. i dun gt y myself still watch it till d end from d start.. n yet, i din feel it was watin to puke................ nw i wan.. bcuz lukin at myself, i think i noe y, mayb... bt s/how, evitime, evi year n second, ppl hv their dream dat r their likin dun they, to satisfied themself, keepin up to society, chat, playin or even hang out.. bt till dis year, it was harsh to me to gt force nt to use internet n i was lik bein addicted to fb and manga lik dam over.. is lik hw ppl use to describe takin drugs huh.. i was so disappointed in d games i miss out in fb, or even manga n even write down d update liz eviday if i had a lil chance to use it.. bt slowly, mayb d situation chg s/how, i let go of internet alot.. does it matter dat i hv to use or not? s/hw i kinda understand myself suddenly appearin bek to my blog to write, was it bcz, dat? uhh... bt still my feelin for manga will nt chg anyway, jz i think there's nt much for me to cont readin dat suit my likin, it was lik so many i've read yet, nw is so empty.. i doesn't hv d same feelin anymore? or is it, between d 9 months, i had slowly forgotten? n even d reason y i jz keep on goin on it, is to find a world from suffocatin... haha..... no way i'll gv up on manga, nw i think abt it, i wrote too much c2p thin anyway... d main reason i woke up from my sleepin devil is bcz d 's/1' hu broke d circulation in my blood veins dat it was jz goin to burst.. =) it is nt a joke.. my mum was very busy for these few days n i was bein called to go at 7am for sure, it means i will b wakin up at 6.30 for no reason..!! n yet, u noe wad time we'll start d c2p tt?? it was 9.30am!!!!! and a tt duration time is oni 2hr, and we mz w8t for 2.30hrs oni start!? it pissed me off, dun u think so!! i admit, i will b hot tempered, it cz i cnt stand it!! bt reality i won't show dat anyway~~ =) duno y mayb writin in blog for free to scold, haha... ... bt u noe, when i ltr gt d second sms, i piss of n edit d 1st sms n reply, b4 it end, it was lik '2.30hrs wan die!!' =A=|| n ltr after seein again, edit away cz i think is overboard... haha, i will nt easily send lik dat to s/1 w/out thinkin.. always read ahead b4 sendin mozly,n edit.. so if is my 100% feelin de hua, wouldn't b easy.. haha.. anyway, sayin die is nt gud manners to my dear wenn to see anyway~~(pls dun think i'm a bian tai or anythin.. haha.. jk) haha, mzly oso wil think further ahead, bt is in my own way.. =O anyway, i'll tell mum abt dis matter 2molo, nw, i'll head bek to sleep..

yet another mz b rise again n again,
leavin all bhind was jz piece of d pain,
s thin we missed n loz wil nt b rmb,
yet i try hard to tek d pieces 2geher,
could u hear my song n words?
would u understand a single phase?
when ppl say think out of d box,
is lik judgin d flower was sad it wiltered..
bt they're speechlez, lik s/1 u noe,
hvin thorns on it's stem blow,
u wouldn't noe it was hapi nor sad,
it could b hatred it ends n forgotten in d laz...

i wan to......... ZzZz

too tired to tok nw.. i reli wan to go sleep no matter wad.. my eyes are lik to tired to even luk at my science paper today!! is lik 1hr and 30min n i wan lik, front easy middle hard, back easy, den sleep 4 awhile.. den i blur blur see d time still left 30 min n i still left so many question in blank.. ><" i quickly pt any answer inside d paper to let me rez.. the day b4 ytd i was studyin geo and i noe, i ply com, yaya.. bt den i sleep as normal, bt wake up, nt normal time at all.. i was lik woke on 2am n i saw i had my geo latihan do halfway ahead n i will b doin geo paper soon, so i wanted to sleep yet i kinda hv a feelin god wanted me to wake at dis time to do fin, so, i force myself wakin up and start doin from 2pm n i wan lik done at 5.30am.. n i still left 30 min so i read manga.. =P bt oso gt find tips in internet lar, oni some c2p no use, nid 100++ $$ to buy.. n i again read my sejarah ytd(start from evenin tuition, bt halfway blur ahead), den go bek home to tired, bt still takin d buk, sit infront of d tv so i won't feel sleepy, n i ended up mozly watchin n doin bt still sleep halfway(it was late to me dat time, 9pm) n i lik b4 sleep, try doin it n den i ZZZ jor.. so mornin i woke up at 12am++, yet, i'm too sleepy to think abt it and slept bek n ended up wakin up at 2am again, n i woke up, i had miss d 2hours for sleepin n i kinda regret it, u noe i haven read fin my form 1 and form 3, and my form 2 i din touch at all... i try to read fin d form 3 bt it keep makin me sleepy after all.. u noe, sejarah la... ><><"" so nw should i sleep or read my manga? =/ hahahahaha.. cn rez 3 more days, n den d bc i nw regret takin it... ==
i reli HATE blogger rite nw, dis poz is the THIRD TIME i repoz becz wad html prob.. so many time i poz oso gt lik dat, mek me nid to rewrite again n again the part it go erase de part.. so long i oso lazy to write jor.. i rpt the 3rd time in one of the thin, i say wenn sure cn gt better result in sc paper 2, so high marks...etc etc(all gud de) n nt lik me.. =) end.. i better go away from here as soon as possible.. dis blog reli mek me feng diao s/time..

panic!! PMR.. start!!

yea.. PMR starts today.. i was lik so panic since ytd.. bt i duno y i still cn on fb n play ps... = =" n den i study geo till form 3 i stop, i cont wif my form 1 bab 1 to 3 sejarah.. mornin cum i was lik readin my bm, since is bm tez today... 2molo is geo and bi.. damn~!! ><|| my geo suck... bt wenn geng, A student in geo n sejarah... anyway, today bm dun even hv any blank appear in the question!! and wth, so hard.. the paper 1 i gt no mata to tengok jor... jz see 1st few question de answer i wrong more den half jor, u say lieh? den ltr paper 2 was lik... - - duno wad to say..
section A- kepentingan sukan dalam meningkatkan kecemerlangan murid
section A(ii) 1.bergandin bahu(b4 paz tez paper ask b4 same question, i oso answer same ans)
section B-Kesan kegiatan pembalakan secara tidak terkawal
section C-2.ibu bapa merupakan insan yg disayangi(bukti)
section D-PS nilai-kasih sayang(3 contoh)

my fren after tez show me his 'tip' buk, gt the section b and d punya answer... lol! me n cullyn was lik 'wad?', n i even listen to my devil teacher advice to read surat tidak rasmi abt pelancongan yet it was lik nt surat n is harder de question.. i gt think abt writin dat(no.4) bt i duno hw to write so i jz folo wif d no.2.. and the novel i oni cn think of 2 contoh, 1 father, one mother, another i simply write is d daughter.. n when b4 end de 5 min, i was so scared i cnt make it in time n luckily finsih jor.. phew~~ pei yi oso say she jz fin in time, n cullyn she say even d teacher say stop, she's still writin anyway.. n den while waitin, there's a teacher(nt reli my claz punya) edi end jor n den sooooo many teache kumpul in my claz, den ltr she cross over b4 i paz up n she suddenly cal me n say, nid to write the soalan in front! i was lik, huh? nid to write meh?!? den i say, how? she was lik pointin to d instruction there.. den i lik.. o...kay.. d ins oni say write d soalan bt nvr say in where, i tot is inside cz there gt.. = ="" so v paz up.. den when mum fetch me, my mum ask to boro $$ from bro, he tuk out a wallet dat was spongebob pic full wif cash inside anyway.. so d wallet was former jeremy wan, den i sau y he tuk, he was lik scoldin me jor.. = =|| i duno is i think or he reli tuk my lil bro $$ away anyway.. even buyin d PS2 oso mozly tek from jeremy's $$........ = = i duwan to care anyway.. lalalalala... bt d fact i wan to say, teacher siew's teachin is nt reli gud at all... u noe y?? cz he say graf n bar hor.. my devil teacher(sabrina) say cnt cum out lik dat, if nt the grade will b lower.. n i was lik nt followin his way, due to i dun reli think is effective for me.. ><|| my teacher say cnt write lik dat, n i oso think so.. he jz copy n folo wad d buk say! it was lik chg format jor oso duno.. = =|| dun care jor.. BM pt aside, here cum BI n yet, GEO!!!!!! >=O den next day more worst, SCIENCE & SEJARAH ar!!!!!!!!! >< pls i beg u, 5A at liz...!!!! OAO